hide and seek.

[first image, shitty quality. i know.
webcamsss. what can you do.]



where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads - heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before
the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
oh, you won't catch me around here
blood and tears
they were here first

Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that its all for the best?
because it is
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whacha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

hide and seek
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

hide and seek
speak no feeling
no
i don't believe you
you don't care a bit.
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^most amazing song in the world.
no competition.



all i wish is that i wasn't so...
stupid.
so stupid that i repeat the same mistakes
over and over and over and over.
& it's about the time that i think,
maybe it's not them.
it's me.



but we live different lives.
two completely different ones
that have nothing to do with each other.
and every day is a stupid fight.
every other minute is a comment out of jealousy.


right now. i just don't have the heart.












maybe it's about time i realize
love just isn't real.


not between father and daughter.
not between mistakes and consequences.
not between you and me.








i need that ONE THING that will just give me the strength to walk away.

again.